To answer my Sis....I am fine. I have this unproductive need to tell everyone that I am fine and indeed, I am. When I look at the large (very large, gianormous in fact) picture I can honestly say that I am fine. I am blessed with health and the health of the kids, money, freedom etc.. I am also blessed with learning lessons that I've not had the opportunity to learn (not exactly true. I have had many opportunities but was never forced to learn them as these past two years have done). I have a very simple life right now. I work, come home, walk to the store for dinner, eat a little something, listen to music, read, hang with Katie and Dani (when they're home), lay poolside, walk to the farmers market, and walk to church. That's about it. I believe this next year will be about me learning who Birgita is. Was always one half of a.....well.....something. Truth be told, this is hard. Really hard. Sometimes I can't see beyond the day I'm in. I get really anxious and overwhelmed and feel that I simply can't do it. Then I remember what Sis told me so long ago. "Birgita, just focus on what you need at the moment". " Do you have a roof over your head? Are you healthy? Do you have enough food to feed your family today?" That's when you are truly living moment to moment. I think everyday I am better than the day before but not as alright as I'll be the next day. So I can look forward to each new day. That's it. Enough about me. Next blog will be about something really cool! All my love to everyone who will read this silly blog......
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Thank you, that is what I have been wanting to hear from you! I love the simple life myself, but it hasn't been so simple this summer, with trips around the world, and babysitting, and trying to force the youngest to learn to take care of herself and her son...and we are getting new windows today!!!!
I am also glad to hear you are fine. I had a dream that you went missing and was a tad worried about you.. The simple life is good.. I'm trying to be simple too, then I go a fall asleep at the wheel and it just creates more Lacey stories.. Other than that Chris has been gone for 3 weeks and I've been single. It is very different. But I'll be glad when he comes home this Sat. He's missed so much of Alex's cuteness, it's sad. I think he'll be home for awhile. Love to all of you.. Lacey :)
Hey girl, glad to hear that you are good, despite all the interesting, lonely and scary forms that goodness comes in. Life is what we make it and if I had any choice for life it would be the simple one, there is peace and security in simpleness, at least for me. Anytime you want some child created chaos you are always welcome to come to our home. Nothing like three loud little characters that force you into living moment by moment. Much love
HI Gita,
That Jennifer is a wise sister! Thanks for the comment, would love to talk to you about the orphanage and opportunities if you ever want to go with us. Not sure there is ever a "perfect" time to do what you feel you're "supposed to do". I just got done waiting, and was blessed to have a partner that made sure it happened. You just have to do it anyway! :)
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