Dear Jennifer,

To answer my Sis....I am fine. I have this unproductive need to tell everyone that I am fine and indeed, I am. When I look at the large (very large, gianormous in fact) picture I can honestly say that I am fine. I am blessed with health and the health of the kids, money, freedom etc.. I am also blessed with learning lessons that I've not had the opportunity to learn (not exactly true. I have had many opportunities but was never forced to learn them as these past two years have done). I have a very simple life right now. I work, come home, walk to the store for dinner, eat a little something, listen to music, read, hang with Katie and Dani (when they're home), lay poolside, walk to the farmers market, and walk to church. That's about it. I believe this next year will be about me learning who Birgita is. Was always one half of a.....well.....something. Truth be told, this is hard. Really hard. Sometimes I can't see beyond the day I'm in. I get really anxious and overwhelmed and feel that I simply can't do it. Then I remember what Sis told me so long ago. "Birgita, just focus on what you need at the moment". " Do you have a roof over your head? Are you healthy? Do you have enough food to feed your family today?" That's when you are truly living moment to moment. I think everyday I am better than the day before but not as alright as I'll be the next day. So I can look forward to each new day. That's it. Enough about me. Next blog will be about something really cool! All my love to everyone who will read this silly blog......

Must watch!!!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adYbFQFXG0U

Pandora

Just wanted to share. Does anyone know about Pandora radio. It's from the Genome Music Project. I listen everyday and heres why:

1. You can pick any genre!

2. You can pick any song and the site will load songs that are alike in style etc.

3. You can skip a song if you don't like it.

4. You can replay a song if you really like it.

5. You can see what cd a particular song is from.

6. Etc, etc, etc,

Probably there are many multiple sites that are similar. I usually am a day late and a dollar short when it comes to online stuff, but if you don't know about it....check it out!

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Misc.

Here are some sweet pics.

Cash

Cash is a perfect little baby. Never cries. 10 fingers.10 toes. Casey is so calm with him. She took him to a pool so the girls could go swimming on day two of his little life. Then we took the girls to wallmart...I mean....Megamart, on day three of his little life. He eats well and Casey is doing good with breastfeeding. Everything is as it should be. Gordon is a VERY attentive father. The kids think he's great. Even China ( the Shitzu) thinks he's pretty cool.

Boo Hoo...

Here is the saddest news ever.

I called Ren to see if I needed to get Dizzy on Monday and he told me that he took her to a doggy shelter in Ventura.

She's Gone.

It's not all Ren's fault as I was ready to do the same but it still feels really yucky.

Please pray that a super cool family with a big back yard, two cats to terrorize, occasional visiting wee lads so she can box at them, a tight rope walking squirrel who will antagonize her, and a big plush down bed to sleep on, adopts her.

Thanks.

Gita